Gigi Hadid, who welcomed a daughter named Khai alongside partner Zayn Malik last year, opened up in a new interview about struggling with anxiety before she gave birth.
Hadid, 26, explained to Harper’s Bazaar that she kept two journals while she was pregnant -- a "good journal and one journal that I called the bad journal."
Hadid explains that inside the latter journal are writings about "Anxieties and days where I felt like, 'Am I good enough to be a mom?'"
"I didn't want to feel guilty about feeling those things or writing those things down. I just liked the separation," she continued, noting that she will allow Khai to read the "bad journal" once she's older. Her first birthday is in September.
MORE: Gigi Hadid discusses raising a mixed-race child and being made to feel 'too white'Hadid said she took up journaling as a hobby during the pandemic and told the outlet, "I also have sketch pads where I’ll watercolor-sketch, and sometimes I end up writing there too. I write on the back of receipts and keep those in a notebook. I’m not particular about it, and my journals are everywhere around the house. I just pick up whichever one is closest to me and write."
"It’s peaceful and recharging for me ... I deal with a lot of things through just sitting and thinking and writing," she added.
When it came to discussing self-expression, Hadid admitted she is very cautious about what she says in public because of the size of her platform.
MORE: Gigi Hadid pens passionate letter to paparazzi requesting they blur her baby's face in photos"You learn the hard way to be really careful with your words," the supermodel said.